Ever have those mornings where the kids are fighting.....arguing.....and complaining? Today was the second day of "these mornings" for me. I sat down on the couch closed my eyes....held my head in my hand. I was praying in my head.....God I feel so tired....drained and frustrated. I just don't understand why they must fight and argue with each other.....it was at that moment I felt God....he pricked my heart.....I heard Him say...me too....why must people do the same.....I was quite....I then said....God I feel so under appreciated....I do everything in power to make sure they feel loved and cared for....again I felt God's presence and He said....me too......I felt pricked in my heart. It was at this moment my twins were standing in front of me....tears streaming down their faces. I began to talk with them....more tears coming down...I dismissed Andrea to finish getting ready for school....I had a few moments with Allison....she has been the one to give me the most trouble lately....I said Allison is anything going on? She said no....I said baby girl unless you talk to me....I can't help you. Then at that very moment.....I felt God even stronger.....as I was speaking to Allison God was speaking through me and to me. Unless we talk to God and tell him know how we are feeling He cannot help us. It was in my moment of being a parent that God was speaking to me. Even as something as simple as my son asking me...mom are these socks to small....I said they look OK....Josh says....look at this....with a raised eyebrow I say Josh if you know they are to small why did you ask me if they are to small? I chuckle inside again....how many times do we do this very thing to God? We ask God a question and we all ready know what the answer is...yet we ask Him.....the Joys of being a mother and a parent....and this morning....as I was being that parent God was speaking to my heart! And what did I learn? That if I don't communicate with God...(Prayer life) He can't help me....even though he all ready knows my needs, wants and desires...even though he sees the areas I struggle in....He can't help me unless I communicate with him...unless I let him in and let him help me. I learned that no matter how tired or frustrated or under appreciated I feel.....I am only feeling and understanding what God himself has gone through and goes through daily. So thankful for the last two mornings....so thankful my kids were fussing and arguing.....it opened a door for God to minister to my heart...to let me know just how much He understands the very things I am going through....the very struggles I face. I feel so loved and thankful this morning....for He took the time to let me know this morning just how much He loves and adores me. He comforted me and let me know just how much he understands what I am going through...even if it is just being frustrated with being a mom.
Jhn 3:35 The Father loveth the Son, and hath given all things into his hand. Jhn 5:20 For the Father loveth the Son, and sheweth him all things that himself doeth: and he will shew him greater works than these, that ye may marvel.
